Mood:
on fireNow Playing: Share with me - The Used
Ugh. It's our fucking anniversary and he couldn't even spare a few minutes of sleep just to greet me to show that he cares. ="( I know I shouldn't make a big deal out of this but sometimes he just doesn't get me. He never does. I thought he would change as time goes on but things are more or less the same.
Ugh. I just hate it when I give him some clues but he just doesn't get it. I'm disappointed. I'm devastated. But most of all, I'm hurt. He knows I'm sensitive but he doesn't even try his best to pamper me with his love. There are times when I need extra attention from him but he doesn't even notice it. Of course I want to talk to you longer, if my voice tone suddenly change when you ask if you can just hang up(yes, even when I say you can). Of course I want you to comfort me when I'm feeling down or when I pretend to ignore you(I need MORE attention ok?). Of course I'm not okay when I start crying(yes, even when I say that I am). Of course I'm jealous when so and so happens..... Of course I'm hurt when so and so happens.... YOU SHOULD KNOW!!! You've known me for more than a yr for god's sake! How can you not understand me?????
Ugh. I'm a sensitive humanbeing and I'm always seeking for your attention so you don't just cut me off whenever you like. I hate it when you put other things before me. I hate being second.
Ugh. For god's sake, open your eyes, widen your ears, PAY MORE ATTENTION ON ME. I expected you to understand my emotions by now but NOOOOOO you're not even close to it. It's as if you don't care about me. And this feeling, it HURTS.
Ugh. You promised me a lifetime of happiness but what have I got? Yes, I'm happy. My happiness is only this much --> <-- And that amount is also how much I think you love me. Do you think that's enough for me???? Well if u haven't figured it out, NOOOO, IT ISN'T.
Ugh. All I WANT is YOUR LOVE. Is that TOO MUCH to ask for? If it is, why can't you just let me go? Why do you want me to go through this????
UGH. I'm out.
hushed by dyvilicious
at 11:34 PM
Updated: Sunday, 13 March 2005 11:57 PM
